Much of my life I felt misunderstood so I cannot disagree. I am glad to hear you have someone here, though I am also sorry. I do not know if you feel the same way, but I both miss my friends and am glad they are not here. It is something I have been struggling with.
[Loki doesn’t actually know why he’s telling Wei Wuxian such personal things at the moment, but he suspects it is because he feels a kinship with the other man.]
Precisely. Curiosity knows no bounds. Life would be so boring without it.
That possibility has occurred to me as well. I do wonder if something has changed though that they seem to require so many people. There are new arrivals every couple of months it seems. Is there an issue? Or can it never be sated?
i get it. that was the same feeling i had before his arrival. still have after his arrival. especially since we don't know what really happens to people here, after they turn into statues. if their spirit has left and returned home or if they're just stuck.
[ the feeling is mutual, at least. wei wuxian wouldn't approach this conversation with anything less than honesty, because he likes loki a lot. ]
if you think of it as a living entity, like ourselves, then it makes a bit more sense, no? we have to eat every day. nearly three or four times a day. and we do this forever, until we die. why wouldn't the house be the same?
May I ask how you are dealing with it? I worry I have been lulled into a false sense of security after being here for so long with no arrivals of anyone I know, while at the same time knowing it could happen at any moment. Every time new arrivals appear, I find myself worried and I do not know how I will handle it if this should ever come to pass for me.
I do sincerely hope that the statues mean that their spirit has been released back home. I have seen some disappear and come back, though they are not who they were before, typically from a different timeline so I cannot say what truly happened to the person I met originally. It is disturbing to say the least.
[For some reason, that is not something Loki has considered before, but it makes an awful lot of sense.]
I think you must be correct about that. I wonder if we can find a way of discovering if its appetite has changed then. It seems possible that it is feeding more considering how many people seem to arrive periodically. That number far exceeds how many leave. So now I wonder what that reason might be. Is it simply gorging itself? Or is there something wrong that means it requires more sustenance?
poorly, if i'm honest. i can't help but spend our time together worrying about him leaving at any given time. i'm relieved when i wake up and he's still there and anxious when i go to bed and unsure if he'll be there in the morning. i think it's something i just have to learn to live with.
that does sound disturbing. if only we had more information...
i have the same questions as you! does it need a little bit more every time to be satisfied? then when will it be satisfied? if we had accurate numbers for each round of arrivals, this would likely help but the idea of gathering those numbers seems more difficult than anything else
[That is a feeling Loki can identify with. He’s lost a lot of people in his life and that’s something that never gets easier. Even if it just means that the people you miss are simply somewhere else. He’s been feeling that even more intensely lately. It’s like with every passing day, he misses people from home more and more. But he tries not to think about it since there isn’t anything more he can do about it.]
I am very sorry to hear that. I know how hard that can be. Losing people is never easy. I would like to offer some sage advice that you should live every moment you have with him to the fullest, but I know that words can be cheap.
I do keep trying to find more information, but they are rather good at hiding what is going on. I’m actually a little impressed. I thought I would’ve found out a lot more by now.
I agree. Gathering data like that seems rather tedious, but it is a good idea. Perhaps there is someone here who enjoys that sort of information collection? I might consider putting something out on the network. You never know what people like doing.
i appreciate the sentiment though. it's definitely something i've tried to remind myself and so, your advice is heeded. i enjoy the time i do spend with him, at least.
it makes me wonder sometimes if the staff even knows what's going on or if they're just living their lives, oblivious. is there anyone with answers at all?
and that's a good idea... alright, i might try that soon! maybe someone has the numbers and can advise.
That is about all we can do, really. Try to enjoy what time we have even as we try to change our circumstances. Most people, I believe, do not wish to be here. At least not in the sense of not being able to leave whenever they wish. I could see this being an interesting and fun vacation, but kidnapping is not something I think anyone truly enjoys.
But you are lucky. We are all lucky that this place isn’t worse, but to have someone you care for here is something I admit to being jealous of.
I am unsure about the staff as a whole. I know that some are former guests who did not leave for varying reasons. I assume they know more than us, but I do not believe they know enough to truly understand what is happening here. Or if they did, they do not any longer. Being here for a long time seems to affect guests response to the events that occur, if the long standing guests are anything to go by.
Please do let me know if you find anything out, and I will do the same in return.
i can agree with that. i definitely would've fancied a visit here myself if it wasn't permanent and without my consent. i like being here, but i don't like the circumstances around my being here, you know?
and yes, that i also agree with. i feel incredibly lucky to have him here. i'm sorry that you don't have anyone of your own here as well but all i can do is offer my own company if you're ever lonely, gongzi
yeah... that makes sense. so, they're useless overall. so annoying! it really is just up to us to figure things out.
Precisely. If I saw this place advertised, I am sure I would consider vacationing here, but not only did I not get that choice, but they really chose a very inopportune moment to take me. I was in the middle of some very important work.
Thank you for your concern. I miss some people quite a lot, even more than I thought I might, but part of me is also glad they are not here. I have done some things here that I worry would change how they see me in a way I do not want.
[The idea of Mobius knowing what he gets up to in bed is both titillating and surprisingly embarrassing and he doesn’t know what he’d do if his best friend were ever to arrive here.]
I will be sure to take you up on your offer though, whenever I find myself feeling lonely.
That does seem to be the case. Somehow I suspect that they are as lost as we are, though I have been wrong before.
oh, that's unfortunate. yeah, i think if this place took me a few weeks before they did, i would be in your same position. instead, it's after some big events happened to me and so i'm at peace.
really? that's unfortunate. do you have a different reputation back home than what you appear to be here?
I am glad to hear you are at peace with your life before being taken. That is a true gift.
To most, yes. Specifically to my family and those with whom I spent most of my life. In more recent times, I have made friends with people who have allowed me to change for the better and I am eternally grateful to them. I only wish my family could see how I have changed.
[ that... oddly resonates with him. he thinks of his brother, of how fractured their relationship has become, and he wishes so much that jiang cheng would be able to see things the way wei wuxian does. ]
i understand that. to be seen by your family as a whole person is a desire that i think anyone can relate to. i hope you're able to see them again.
[Brothers at odds? These two should be best friends. Loki doesn’t know anything about Wei Wuxian’s relationship with his brother, or even that he has one (at least not yet) but he would hope they can see a way through, like he can with Thor. His brother might annoy him with his overly optimistic ways, but Loki does love him.]
Especially when you have done wrong in their eyes and you wish for them to see how much more there can be. And thank you. It is rather unlikely with how things were when I came here, but I have not lost all hope.
[ Oh, they'll have to bond over their brothers soon. They most certainly will.
But ah... that sentence is like it was aimed for Wei Wuxian's heart as a target with how hard it hits. Family that sees you as having done wrong... ha. Hahahaha. ]
we might be more similar than i realized, gongzi. my family... doesn't exactly see me in the best light either. it's been a long time since i've been welcomed home.
[Indeed they will. Loki has learned much on the subject of family in recent years.]
I am sorry to hear that. I have come to understand, at least in my own case, that much of what happened between myself and my family was a misunderstanding. Not that I did not do wrong, but that the reason I was lashing out in the first place might not have been the whole story. I do hope there is a way back for you and your family. But even if not, I hope you know that not all family is those you are related to by blood. Friends count just as much.
then i truly hope you can tell them the whole story one day.
[ but as for him... he's not sure. jiang cheng knows the full story now, but he's still upset with wei wuxian, still can't stand him. who knows if they'll ever be the same? ]
you're right though, about friends. i have other people i love now who aren't my family and they make me feel just as whole. so, i don't feel too bad about it.
Thank you, I appreciate that. I have hope I will be able to do that one day as well, but I am not holding my breath considering our current circumstances.
I am glad to hear you have others in your life. I do not like the thought of my friends feeling alone. Though I will hold some hope for you that you can mend things with anyone else in your life you wish to.
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[Loki doesn’t actually know why he’s telling Wei Wuxian such personal things at the moment, but he suspects it is because he feels a kinship with the other man.]
Precisely. Curiosity knows no bounds. Life would be so boring without it.
That possibility has occurred to me as well. I do wonder if something has changed though that they seem to require so many people. There are new arrivals every couple of months it seems. Is there an issue? Or can it never be sated?
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[ the feeling is mutual, at least. wei wuxian wouldn't approach this conversation with anything less than honesty, because he likes loki a lot. ]
if you think of it as a living entity, like ourselves, then it makes a bit more sense, no? we have to eat every day. nearly three or four times a day. and we do this forever, until we die. why wouldn't the house be the same?
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I do sincerely hope that the statues mean that their spirit has been released back home. I have seen some disappear and come back, though they are not who they were before, typically from a different timeline so I cannot say what truly happened to the person I met originally. It is disturbing to say the least.
[For some reason, that is not something Loki has considered before, but it makes an awful lot of sense.]
I think you must be correct about that. I wonder if we can find a way of discovering if its appetite has changed then. It seems possible that it is feeding more considering how many people seem to arrive periodically. That number far exceeds how many leave. So now I wonder what that reason might be. Is it simply gorging itself? Or is there something wrong that means it requires more sustenance?
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that does sound disturbing. if only we had more information...
i have the same questions as you! does it need a little bit more every time to be satisfied? then when will it be satisfied? if we had accurate numbers for each round of arrivals, this would likely help but the idea of gathering those numbers seems more difficult than anything else
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I am very sorry to hear that. I know how hard that can be. Losing people is never easy. I would like to offer some sage advice that you should live every moment you have with him to the fullest, but I know that words can be cheap.
I do keep trying to find more information, but they are rather good at hiding what is going on. I’m actually a little impressed. I thought I would’ve found out a lot more by now.
I agree. Gathering data like that seems rather tedious, but it is a good idea. Perhaps there is someone here who enjoys that sort of information collection? I might consider putting something out on the network. You never know what people like doing.
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it makes me wonder sometimes if the staff even knows what's going on or if they're just living their lives, oblivious. is there anyone with answers at all?
and that's a good idea... alright, i might try that soon! maybe someone has the numbers and can advise.
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But you are lucky. We are all lucky that this place isn’t worse, but to have someone you care for here is something I admit to being jealous of.
I am unsure about the staff as a whole. I know that some are former guests who did not leave for varying reasons. I assume they know more than us, but I do not believe they know enough to truly understand what is happening here. Or if they did, they do not any longer. Being here for a long time seems to affect guests response to the events that occur, if the long standing guests are anything to go by.
Please do let me know if you find anything out, and I will do the same in return.
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and yes, that i also agree with. i feel incredibly lucky to have him here. i'm sorry that you don't have anyone of your own here as well but all i can do is offer my own company if you're ever lonely, gongzi
yeah... that makes sense. so, they're useless overall. so annoying! it really is just up to us to figure things out.
of course! happy to share, always.
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Thank you for your concern. I miss some people quite a lot, even more than I thought I might, but part of me is also glad they are not here. I have done some things here that I worry would change how they see me in a way I do not want.
[The idea of Mobius knowing what he gets up to in bed is both titillating and surprisingly embarrassing and he doesn’t know what he’d do if his best friend were ever to arrive here.]
I will be sure to take you up on your offer though, whenever I find myself feeling lonely.
That does seem to be the case. Somehow I suspect that they are as lost as we are, though I have been wrong before.
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really? that's unfortunate. do you have a different reputation back home than what you appear to be here?
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To most, yes. Specifically to my family and those with whom I spent most of my life. In more recent times, I have made friends with people who have allowed me to change for the better and I am eternally grateful to them. I only wish my family could see how I have changed.
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i understand that. to be seen by your family as a whole person is a desire that i think anyone can relate to. i hope you're able to see them again.
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Especially when you have done wrong in their eyes and you wish for them to see how much more there can be. And thank you. It is rather unlikely with how things were when I came here, but I have not lost all hope.
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But ah... that sentence is like it was aimed for Wei Wuxian's heart as a target with how hard it hits. Family that sees you as having done wrong... ha. Hahahaha. ]
we might be more similar than i realized, gongzi. my family... doesn't exactly see me in the best light either. it's been a long time since i've been welcomed home.
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I am sorry to hear that. I have come to understand, at least in my own case, that much of what happened between myself and my family was a misunderstanding. Not that I did not do wrong, but that the reason I was lashing out in the first place might not have been the whole story. I do hope there is a way back for you and your family. But even if not, I hope you know that not all family is those you are related to by blood. Friends count just as much.
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[ but as for him... he's not sure. jiang cheng knows the full story now, but he's still upset with wei wuxian, still can't stand him. who knows if they'll ever be the same? ]
you're right though, about friends. i have other people i love now who aren't my family and they make me feel just as whole. so, i don't feel too bad about it.
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I am glad to hear you have others in your life. I do not like the thought of my friends feeling alone. Though I will hold some hope for you that you can mend things with anyone else in your life you wish to.