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of course it is!! it conveys the deep emotional connection between the two main characters as they face these events! one of them has trouble expressing his emotions and the other one is full of emotions all the time so the only way he can show it to his partner is through sex!
hey now! i'm a romantic guy, you know? [ no he's not ] i even got a little teary eyed at their love confession. they were apart for a long time and when they finally reunited, the more emotional guy couldn't contain his feelings any longer and confessed.
then the more withdrawn one shared his feelings as well. the way it was written, it made the reader doubt he would! but then he did and it was so shocking and touching at the same time!
hahaha when i was younger, i used to think romance was stupid and just haltering your own neck. i guess now that i'm older, i can see why companionship like that would be sweet
then the more withdrawn one shared his feelings as well. the way it was written, it made the reader doubt he would! but then he did and it was so shocking and touching at the same time!
hahaha when i was younger, i used to think romance was stupid and just haltering your own neck. i guess now that i'm older, i can see why companionship like that would be sweet
Haltering your own neck.
[ that.. actually explains a lot. a young lan wangji could never quite figure out what teenage wei wuxian's end game was— if all the flirting was only for fun, he craved the attention, or if he really was skirt-chasing as much as made it seem. ]
Yet you flirted without restraint, not paying attention to the ways it would unsettle the hearts of others.
[ that.. actually explains a lot. a young lan wangji could never quite figure out what teenage wei wuxian's end game was— if all the flirting was only for fun, he craved the attention, or if he really was skirt-chasing as much as made it seem. ]
Yet you flirted without restraint, not paying attention to the ways it would unsettle the hearts of others.
[ ha... that's true. he sure did. and honestly, a big part of that was because he liked the attention. he still does. but that's so embarrassing to admit, isn't it? ]
no one actually took me seriously though! [ or so he believes. ] and i doubt anyone actually had a crush on me or anything. i was so annoying!
[ again, so he believes. ]
no one actually took me seriously though! [ or so he believes. ] and i doubt anyone actually had a crush on me or anything. i was so annoying!
[ again, so he believes. ]
[ sorry 😔 ]
hmmm. well, i do flirt with people here because that's kind of the way of things at the golden peacock, no?
but everyone knows i'm not interested in dating them!
[ and then there's a long moment where it says @wwx is typing as he tries to figure out how to say this next bit.
he's getting a little flustered now. ]
when it comes to romance, i want something more sincere than just flirting and having fun with someone. i want someone who really knows my heart.
[ is that too much? is that too honest? oh geez. oh boy. ]
hmmm. well, i do flirt with people here because that's kind of the way of things at the golden peacock, no?
but everyone knows i'm not interested in dating them!
[ and then there's a long moment where it says @wwx is typing as he tries to figure out how to say this next bit.
he's getting a little flustered now. ]
when it comes to romance, i want something more sincere than just flirting and having fun with someone. i want someone who really knows my heart.
[ is that too much? is that too honest? oh geez. oh boy. ]
[ everyone knows i'm not interested in dating them!
lan wangji isn't even paying attention to how long the little typing bubbles are present afterwards, too engrossed with repeating that comment in his mind. yes, he knows it very well thank you very much. because wei ying always speaks his mind, and if he wanted more than just sex, he would request it. demand it. right?
but of course he doesn't. it's simply the way of golden peacock after all.
and then the rest of the message comes through, and he can't help but feel bitterness upon reading it. someone who knows his heart? more than his zhiji? ]
Use caution if you intend to seek such things here. When it comes to explaining matters of the heart, our words and customs do not translate well.
lan wangji isn't even paying attention to how long the little typing bubbles are present afterwards, too engrossed with repeating that comment in his mind. yes, he knows it very well thank you very much. because wei ying always speaks his mind, and if he wanted more than just sex, he would request it. demand it. right?
but of course he doesn't. it's simply the way of golden peacock after all.
and then the rest of the message comes through, and he can't help but feel bitterness upon reading it. someone who knows his heart? more than his zhiji? ]
Use caution if you intend to seek such things here. When it comes to explaining matters of the heart, our words and customs do not translate well.
[ someone who knows his heart. exactly like his zhiji. that's the problem though, isn't it? he doesn't know how to say that, isn't brave enough yet to explain it. he just wants... he just wants lan wangji and that's it!
but lan wangji is always so... supportive of him seeking out connections with others. even his response now is just advising him to be careful.
for one wild moment, wei wuxian wonders if lan wangji even wants him like that. wouldn't he be more possessive if that were the case? for a moment, he feels crushed at the thought.
what if... what if lan wangji doesn't think of him like that at all? ]
i know. but i don't intend to, so you don't have to worry about it.
[ . . . don't ask, wei wuxian. don't ask the question. don't do it. you don't want to hear the answer. ]
hey, lan zhan. are you looking for someone to be with while here?
[ ugh. he asked. ]
but lan wangji is always so... supportive of him seeking out connections with others. even his response now is just advising him to be careful.
for one wild moment, wei wuxian wonders if lan wangji even wants him like that. wouldn't he be more possessive if that were the case? for a moment, he feels crushed at the thought.
what if... what if lan wangji doesn't think of him like that at all? ]
i know. but i don't intend to, so you don't have to worry about it.
[ . . . don't ask, wei wuxian. don't ask the question. don't do it. you don't want to hear the answer. ]
hey, lan zhan. are you looking for someone to be with while here?
[ ugh. he asked. ]
[ meanwhile, lan wangji is sat there staring at the message on his watch, absolutely dumbstruck, and perhaps a little peeved.
while he has made no move to confess the truth of his feelings towards his zhiji, feeling that it isn't right to thrust his affections upon him whilst also expection their rejection, his behavior definitely could not be mistaken for someone seeking romance or relationships anywhere else. he hardly speaks to anyone, let alone tries to sleep with them! ]
In this resort, do we not share our days and meals together? Retire beside one another each night? When have I shown interest in seeking a suitor among its guests?
while he has made no move to confess the truth of his feelings towards his zhiji, feeling that it isn't right to thrust his affections upon him whilst also expection their rejection, his behavior definitely could not be mistaken for someone seeking romance or relationships anywhere else. he hardly speaks to anyone, let alone tries to sleep with them! ]
In this resort, do we not share our days and meals together? Retire beside one another each night? When have I shown interest in seeking a suitor among its guests?
[ that's... fair. lan wangji isn't interested in the people here, especially not like that. he's known that the whole time but it does soothe his nerves a little to hear it. he just needed to hear it.
but something does rankle at him too. his own insecurities. ]
it's not that i'm demanding too much of your time? you could tell me the truth, you know! i won't take it personally
[ yes he would. ]
but something does rankle at him too. his own insecurities. ]
it's not that i'm demanding too much of your time? you could tell me the truth, you know! i won't take it personally
[ yes he would. ]
[ the potent relief that goes through him at hearing those words is incredible. he just truly does not want to be a burden for lan wangji. it's his greatest worry. ]
good. i'm glad. i feel the same, you know? we eat meals together. we share the same bed. why would i ever want anyone but you at my side?
good. i'm glad. i feel the same, you know? we eat meals together. we share the same bed. why would i ever want anyone but you at my side?
[ the message reminds him of the conversation they had a few weeks back. about returning home, and finding a quiet spot to live out their days together. the conversation that sounded so meaningful even though neither of them dared speak up on the implications.]
It does not become boring? Constrictive?
In this aspect, we are akin to water and oil. Only Wei Ying's company is sought. Wanted. But you enjoy connecting with others. Opening your heart to them.
It does not become boring? Constrictive?
In this aspect, we are akin to water and oil. Only Wei Ying's company is sought. Wanted. But you enjoy connecting with others. Opening your heart to them.
[ he feels a whiplash of emotions in response to the text. his immediate reaction is, of course, isn't it obvious. isn't it obvious that he doesn't want anyone else? that he wants lan wangji and just lan wangji? he has fun with people but that real connection, that comfort, the one person who can make his heart rest easy — it's lan wangji.
but then he feels a little trepidation immediately after. can he say that? should he say that? he hopes it's not obvious because then... then lan wangji will know how he feels and he can't know, he can't.
it takes some time before wei wuxian can put together his response. ]
connecting with others doesn't mean replacing you in my heart.
i like making friends. i like being friendly. but the entire time, i want you at my side as i do it. i want your hand in mine as i walk.
but then he feels a little trepidation immediately after. can he say that? should he say that? he hopes it's not obvious because then... then lan wangji will know how he feels and he can't know, he can't.
it takes some time before wei wuxian can put together his response. ]
connecting with others doesn't mean replacing you in my heart.
i like making friends. i like being friendly. but the entire time, i want you at my side as i do it. i want your hand in mine as i walk.
[ lan wangji reads over the message. then again, and again once more. not only side by side. your hand in mine, he says.
hope is a cruel thing, he should not tempt it, but as he continues to read it over, staring at those little words on the watch face: ]
The language of this world contains no true translation for 'zhiji'. It causes confusion among fellow guests.
[ This may seem like an abrupt topic change out of nowhere but it really isn't. Not when you are dipping your toe into the whole "everyone assumes you are fated lovers" thing. ]
hope is a cruel thing, he should not tempt it, but as he continues to read it over, staring at those little words on the watch face: ]
The language of this world contains no true translation for 'zhiji'. It causes confusion among fellow guests.
[ This may seem like an abrupt topic change out of nowhere but it really isn't. Not when you are dipping your toe into the whole "everyone assumes you are fated lovers" thing. ]
[ Don't worry, even if he was hurting Xue Yang, his pain tolerance would mean he probably wouldn't bother saying anything!
Xue Yang idolizes Wei Wuxian and is happy and enthusiastic to talk about all sorts of dark topics with him... But even he has some discretion, especially around this particular thing. ]
I had a few different workshops I was running experiments in. Things were pretty good until the Jin Sect decided they were fucking done with me. Did all that shit for them and suddenly they were dragging me out and putting a sword in my stomach. Fucking hypocritical cultivators.
[ He even manages to sound properly pissed about it.
And to be fair he really did get a sword through his torso, and slices in a few other places for good measure, but it all intentionally missed his vital organs. It was an outcome he and Jin Guangyao had been preparing for, serving both their interests as long as Xue Yang managed to lie low. He "dies" in front of several witnesses, his body is abandoned in a ditch with no burial, and no one goes looking for him. He'd still be supported by the Jin Sect from the shadows, and Jin Guangyao would be seen as someone reasonable and decisive in the eyes of the cultivation world.
The fact that Xiao Xingchen of all people was deceived and pulled in was just a bonus, someone for Xue Yang to play with to amuse himself as he let the cultivation world move on. ]
Then I was here.
Xue Yang idolizes Wei Wuxian and is happy and enthusiastic to talk about all sorts of dark topics with him... But even he has some discretion, especially around this particular thing. ]
I had a few different workshops I was running experiments in. Things were pretty good until the Jin Sect decided they were fucking done with me. Did all that shit for them and suddenly they were dragging me out and putting a sword in my stomach. Fucking hypocritical cultivators.
[ He even manages to sound properly pissed about it.
And to be fair he really did get a sword through his torso, and slices in a few other places for good measure, but it all intentionally missed his vital organs. It was an outcome he and Jin Guangyao had been preparing for, serving both their interests as long as Xue Yang managed to lie low. He "dies" in front of several witnesses, his body is abandoned in a ditch with no burial, and no one goes looking for him. He'd still be supported by the Jin Sect from the shadows, and Jin Guangyao would be seen as someone reasonable and decisive in the eyes of the cultivation world.
The fact that Xiao Xingchen of all people was deceived and pulled in was just a bonus, someone for Xue Yang to play with to amuse himself as he let the cultivation world move on. ]
Then I was here.
Edited 2025-07-13 16:10 (UTC)
So what do you wanna do until then?
[ Xue Yang finishes his fish and grabs a second one. ]
How about finding some corpses? It's not as fun when we can't do much with them, but it's better than them not existing at all. What's the deal with that, anyway? How does a place have so many ghosts but no corpses?
[ Xue Yang finishes his fish and grabs a second one. ]
How about finding some corpses? It's not as fun when we can't do much with them, but it's better than them not existing at all. What's the deal with that, anyway? How does a place have so many ghosts but no corpses?
[ There is definitely a moment where Wei Wuxian worries he's said a little too much, that his response gave him away. He frets over his words for a moment and when Lan Wangji's reply comes, he doesn't connect the dots right away, just furrowing his brow before replying. ]
yeah! i always have to explain myself when i say it. does it make you uncomfortable? that they assume it's something different than it is?
yeah! i always have to explain myself when i say it. does it make you uncomfortable? that they assume it's something different than it is?
No. It does not make me uncomfortable.
[ Far from it. Actually he is fine with strangers assuming that it means Wei Ying is already spoken for romantically, but it is that very thing which prompts the subject change. ]
Merely reflecting upon differences in culture. To many present, "soulmate" is often synonymous with intended spouses. Fated lovers.
Yet after clarification I do not renounce. For denying the presence of a soulmate, of a zhiji, is to deny the importance of Wei Ying. Apologies.
[ He thinks he gets his point across. That for fellow resort guests the concept of soulmates is inherently romantic in nature, yet in understanding that he still refers to them as such. It is the truth, they are soulmates after all.
And perhaps his own emotions lend credibility to it, anyway. ]
[ Far from it. Actually he is fine with strangers assuming that it means Wei Ying is already spoken for romantically, but it is that very thing which prompts the subject change. ]
Merely reflecting upon differences in culture. To many present, "soulmate" is often synonymous with intended spouses. Fated lovers.
Yet after clarification I do not renounce. For denying the presence of a soulmate, of a zhiji, is to deny the importance of Wei Ying. Apologies.
[ He thinks he gets his point across. That for fellow resort guests the concept of soulmates is inherently romantic in nature, yet in understanding that he still refers to them as such. It is the truth, they are soulmates after all.
[ ... Huh.
Lan Wangji lets people assume they're romantically involved because of the cultural differences that come from trying to explain what a zhiji is to people here. Yet after clarification I do not renounce. He wonders then, how many people think they're... together? Has he talked to anyone who has?
Something about it leaves him warm inside though. Like Lan Wangji is staking quiet possession over him without his knowledge. He likes that, tremendously so. He only objected to people's assumptions because he didn't know Lan Wangji would be okay with people assuming that of them. But if he is...
... ]
you don't have to apologize. if it's easier to have people see us as romantically linked because that's closer to the truth, then i don't see why you should correct them.
i'll stop correcting them too. i thought you'd be upset if i didn't, hahaha.
[ . . . ]
would that be okay with you? if people here thought that of us. it means neither of us could pursue suitors here but it would also mean people would understand our connection to each other a bit more. i'd prefer people acknowledge your importance to me over having some sort of fling with someone i barely know
Lan Wangji lets people assume they're romantically involved because of the cultural differences that come from trying to explain what a zhiji is to people here. Yet after clarification I do not renounce. He wonders then, how many people think they're... together? Has he talked to anyone who has?
Something about it leaves him warm inside though. Like Lan Wangji is staking quiet possession over him without his knowledge. He likes that, tremendously so. He only objected to people's assumptions because he didn't know Lan Wangji would be okay with people assuming that of them. But if he is...
... ]
you don't have to apologize. if it's easier to have people see us as romantically linked because that's closer to the truth, then i don't see why you should correct them.
i'll stop correcting them too. i thought you'd be upset if i didn't, hahaha.
[ . . . ]
would that be okay with you? if people here thought that of us. it means neither of us could pursue suitors here but it would also mean people would understand our connection to each other a bit more. i'd prefer people acknowledge your importance to me over having some sort of fling with someone i barely know
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